|Maddie Not Happy|
We got Maddie when she was two months old, from a lady who hosted a bible study we attended. Two months earlier, her dog had four or five puppies and we were able to see them when they were first born. Maddie was the only brown one, and my girls asked if they could have her. They didn't ask me of course, but plans were already in motion.
|Cuddling with Lindsey|
But after three days...
This dog figured out that she was home and quickly became the center of attention. She was the center of my daughter's attention, at least. I wasn't totally sold on the idea of having a dog, but I gradually warmed to the idea.
Her life was filled with love, treats, pictures, squeaky balls, stuff animals, and all the things that a dog could hope for.
|Maddie with Kellie|
I went back to the house as quickly as I could, and I could see her in the window where she always greeted me when I came home, except she was gone. She was laying on her bed, as still as I have ever seen her before. I walked in, and immediately got down on the floor and I laid there with her, just one last time to say goodbye. To say I wasn't crying would be a lie.
|Mom Thwarting Her Escape|
I find that writing is a great way to reduce stress as well as counter grief. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't grieving today. My blog today is from a letter that I wrote a few weeks ago as she was declining. It was summarized as "if Maddie could write" and what she would have to say to us, as follows:
"If my family could hear me speak, I would tell them: Don’t be sad, because whatever spirit God gave me will remain in your hearts, as my love for you is too much. They say that all dogs go to Heaven, and I’m hoping that’s true. If it is, I will be waiting for you with my tail wagging and a squeaky ball in front of me so that we can play forever and ever.
I have been blessed.
There are no words to describe how much I love all of you, except that I love all of you so very much. Thank you for the most wonderful life any dog could have.
No, Maddie, it is all of us who have been blessed, and while it's not written in the Bible, I do have a hope that all dogs do go to Heaven, and that we'll have a chance to see you once again.
Goodbye old girl...I love you.
|Maddie Dog (1998-2013)|